A year ago, I was faced with a very difficult decision in my life.
I was in a relationship with a young man whom I cared very much for—someone who I thought was perfect for me. We had an incredible connection; there were countless late nights spent deep in conversation and many different things that we loved to do together.
Despite this connection, I felt suppressed—as though as I had lost my individuality and independence and could not regain it. The question in front of me seemed to cloud my sight and burden my heart. It was a question that I yearned to answer through reason, but I eventually realized that my answer rested in God’s grace.
While on a retreat, I prayed steadfastly to God, but not for an answer; rather, I asked for a sign that would guide me in the right direction. In fact, I asked God to make it obvious—Lord knows I sure can be oblivious.
In God’s time, the sign came, and it could not have been more apparent. It was time for us to let go—our paths were no longer linked. I believe that two people cannot grow and flourish together if first they cannot, independently, be the person that they were created to be. With that intention in my heart and a desire to reach my full potential, I was able to make my decision with confidence.
How do we recognize a sign from God? There is no paradigm, but I am certain that in order to receive God’s signs, we must place complete trust in God’s plan for us, and also be open to and pray for God’s grace to permeate our lives.
By choosing to surrender ourselves to God’s direction in grace, we are asking God to help elevate and transform our lives to be more truthful, holy, and virtuous. It is our charge to be slaves to our master, Jesus Christ, and to be fully alert, waiting to greet him at the door when he knocks. It is solely through this watchfulness that we can more fully seek God’s signs and welcome the Lord’s presence in our lives.
So, let us join in prayer today for the gift of God’s life-giving grace, that we can be “dressed for action,” prepared to allow God’s grace to work through each one of us.
Abbey Santanello ‘15
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