Few figures rival Saint Augustine, known for his towering intellect and masterful rhetoric. Yet, in his spiritual biography, the Confessions, he speaks only of the raw vulnerability we experience as humans: “You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our heart is restless until it rests in You.”
The Word of God today speaks directly to that restlessness and even mirrors Augustine’s own journey from trusting in worldly brilliance to making his own the decision to surrender to the “foolishness” of the cross.
Augustine spent his youth chasing prestige and pleasures, intellectual and personal dominance, and complex philosophies. He was too smart for the gospel. Then, Paul dropped a hammer on his prideful way of living, proclaiming that “the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom.” This forced Augustine to realize that his massive intellect couldn’t save his broken willpower. He could debate philosophy, but he couldn’t stop chasing his vices. He needed a Savior, not just a lecture.
And, like the unwise virgins in the gospel, Augustine tried to live on the “borrowed oil” of his saintly mother, who prayed for him for decades. But Augustine had to find his own oil, his own interior life through repentance. Then, his lamp, fueled by his surrender and repentance, would come to shine on his face so that the Lord would come to know him.
Today, Christ asks us who value the “wise” and worldly standards: Is there oil in your lamp? Do I know you? He invites us to lay down the pride of thinking we have it all figured out, embrace the Cross, and daily stock up on the oil of prayer, scripture, and charity—so that we may come to know the Bridegroom and, even more, that when he arrives, he will know us by the light from the burning lamp brightening our faces.